When I heard that Ian Watkins, the much lusted-after front man of Welsh rock band Lostprophets had been arrested and charged with conspiring to rape a one year old baby, two counts of conspiring to engage in sexual touching with two young children, the making and distribution of child pornography and possessing extreme animal pornography, along with two of his girl fans, the vomit in my gut that crippled body was because of the thousands of teenage emo girls that worship him.
It is debilitating for me not because I am a fan of this band or Watkins, but because I know that younger and younger emo girl groupies are now putting themselves up for no boundary type of sexual pain and degradation to service their favourite emo/rock star, including participating in child abuse and bestiality just to please him.
I have seen at Lostprophet gigs (and other emo/rock band gigs) really young girls dressed sluttily hanging around the tour bus willing to do anything to get on that bus or backstage and seen some truly heartbreaking acts of sexual degradation by these bands to these young girls just because they can, and will exploit their Kerrang favourite status to give them a jolly or a kick on those long tours on the road. The kick isn’t a sexual one for these young girls; it is the role of the ‘servicer’ that they have been honoured with. Younger girls always gladly did as they were told so they were always a favourite of Watkins’s.
Lostprophets have been around for around 15 years selling 3 million records and collecting a fairly healthy fan-base in the UK, and most of these fans are die-hard emos. On forums and chat rooms, most comments have pointed to how LP’s music has saved their life and helped them through tough times. How sad it is that these fans who LPs have helped so much must be feeling so disillusioned, tainted and sexually confused.
Feverish devotion pours from young hormonal little girls’ hearts and panties on some of these forums leaning heavily on the love life of Watkins. And of course such infatuation has a fine line with envy. I was disturbed but not entirely surprised that when Watkins was charged with such disturbing offences, many of these teenage girl fans were expressing their love and support for him, even going as far as saying they “would have been the right age for him only 2 or 3 years before” and “only if they knew a couple of years ago, that he preferred sex with pre-pubescent girls, they would have presented themselves to him then.” No, I was not surprised to read these comments. And this is exactly why:
I have been on tour and around many rock bands, from the internationally legendary to the less-known emo ones with devoted cult followings and I have seen the endless stream of teen girls trying to get backstage or hanging around the tour buses. The sexual behaviour that I and my peers exhibited was slutty debauched adult behaviour, but more and more I saw girls as young as 15 offering to be put into extreme sexual humiliation just to ‘get in there’ with their rock idol and to get on his tour bus or backstage. There is an infamous story about how Marilyn Manson and Trent Reznor used to line up girls and whoever could hold cereal and milk in their vaginas the longest would get to sleep with either one of them. Then there are the now legendary tales of what Motley Crue did with their groupies as detailed in their book The Dirt. Tales of debauchery with rock stars and their groupies is nothing new or shocking. Everyone knows about Led Zeppelin’s penchant for younger girls or a certain notorious 1980s stadium band taking it in turns to with a 16 year old fan and her mum. Hell, even those who have read my book know which bands did what to whom. But now there is a new species of groupie as I have found out from researching the Ian Watkins case and it actually makes even me-yes me who is unshakable- broken and really upset.
Watkins was arrested in December 2012 along with two female fans aged 21, and 24. One of them and Watkins face all the five charges of conspiring to rape 1 year old baby, conspiring to sexually abuse two children, making and distributing child pornography and possessing extreme animal porn. Woman 2 does not face the conspiracy to rape charges. She being the the tiny 21 year old ex girlfriend of Watkins claims on her twitter page that her 1 year old son is Watkins’s child, constantly tweeting about Watkins and getting into jealous bitching and fury with gaggles of young and older girls who tweet with high-school glee about their exchanges with Watkins. From reading her tweets I felt so sorry for her. This skinny sickly girl seems to live for her obsession with Watkins, constantly tweeting about how ill she is and even having a mini heart attack (whether it was only to get his attention remains to be seen). But the fact is that she has been arrested alongside him for child abuse offences. It is obvious her infatuation/obsession for him has led her to go to any lengths to please him. I just pray that it wasn’t her son she offered to him as it has been claimed by so many. Her nemesis is a girl named Joanne Nikita Majic. Joanne, who claims to be yet another ex girlfriend of Watkins’s has previously reported him to the police for child abuse and is a major witness in his trial.
I have met quite a few of Watkins’ male and female lovers over the years and have constantly been told by all of them about some very seedy behaviour involving animals and children. Rumours in the rock world have always been flying about his sexual behaviour with children and him making extreme animal porn. I always shrugged these rumours off as vicious gossip, but I kept hearing it from so many different people who knew him well. I have seen so many 15/16 year old emo girls dressing like complete child prostitutes and offering themselves to be abused and humiliated for him that I kinda knew he liked to exploit his young fans sexually. A very close friend of mine who dated Watkins also told me about his ‘animal fetish’ and how she broke up with him for that reason. Like a lot of Watkins’s fans I too have seen his porn website (motherless.com/nastnasty) with Watkins’ profile and photos of him engaging in very sexually explicit photos with men.
Then I saw a website called whosdatedwho.com and read the comments on Watkins’s profile. A trashy tacky gossip site, it is nevertheless full of people who talk about Watkins’s well-known fondness for child sexual abuse well before his arrest. The more I read, going back a couple of years, the more disturbed I got, even though the site is so full of juvenile jealous bickering between his fans, who especially target Joanne Nikita Majic.
Watkins’ trial will start in July. Whatever the outcome of the trial, one fact remains: the young teenage emo girl groupies of now are not just young teenage girls that devour the pages of Kerrang magazine with beating hearts and soiled knickers. They now dress as sluttily as possible to hang around by the tour bus of their favourite emo/rock band with one main mission: the offerings that they make has an almost sacrificial quality to it, to compete in extremities in order to indulge their rock/emo band favourite. There are no boundaries; even child abuse and bestiality just to win that approval a little bit more. And I have seen it all myself.